I was in Toronto, my sister called me from Saudi to tell me that my brother in Amman is ok. I went crazy, sent sms to everyone i know in Jordan to make sure they were ok. Stuck to TV and web to know what was happening. I was angry, sad, homesick like never before. Having some friends from Jordan helped, we gathered to support each other. Kept looking up the list of victims online. and was saddened by the stories I read and heard. The bride and groom, the brilliant filmmaker, the kids. My brother's friend lost relatives there. So sad. We lost so many innocent people that day. And yes, they will always be remembered.
I never wanted to be in Amman more than I wanted to be that day and the days after. And I couldn't believe that my safe amman was not that safe anymore. Something big changed for me that day. However today, I am never bothered with security checks at hotels and malls anymore.